New Self Portrait (Proof)

New Self Portrait (Proof)
Originally uploaded by Clinton_Hayden

Les amants d'un jour

(Shine another glass make the hours pass
Working every day in a cheap café
Who am I to care for a love affair?
Still I can't forget I can see them yet

They came hand in hand, why can't I forget?
For they'd seen the sign that said "Room to Let"
The sunshine of love was deep in their eyes
So young, oh so young, too young to be wise
They wanted a place a small hideaway
A place of their own if just for one day

The walls were so bare, the carpet so thin,
But they took that room and heaven walked in
And I closed the door and turned to depart
With tears in my eyes and tears in my heart

Shine another glass make the hours pass
Working every day in a cheap café
Who am I to care, one more love affair?
Love is nothing new I have work to do

We found them next day, the way they had planned
So quiet, so cold, but still hand in hand
The sunshine of love was all they possessed
And so in the sunshine we laid them to rest
They sleep by side two children alone
But I'm sure they've found a place of their own

So why must I see the ribbon she wore
The glow on his face as I closed the door
Be still children, still, your shadows may start
The tears in my eyes and tears in my heart

Shine another glass make the hours pass
Working every day in a cheap cafe
Evrything is fine 'till I see that sign
How can I forget -- it says "Room to Let")

I love this song, Edith Piaf. I don't know why, I think it's partly her delivery. And I love people watching.

Hana and Her Bruises

Next Years Exhibition

Next Years Exhibition
Originally uploaded by Clinton_Hayden

So this is the space I'll be showing in in January!
I'm VERY excited. Very.

Next Years Exhibition

Next Years Exhibition
Originally uploaded by Clinton_Hayden

So this is the space I'll be showing in in January!
I'm VERY excited. Very.

Order of Melbourne Zombie Staff

Order of Melbourne Zombie Staff #1

Order of Melbouren Bullet Holed Staff

sketches

envy.

what do i do?

do i draw? thin lines, gentle lines, light lines, deep cuts.
I can't.

do i take pictures? bodies slumped, buildings tall, silent and empty, pornographic, sexualized, subtle. intense.
I can't.

At the moment my head is a cloud. taking things in, getting ready to rain onto thirsty ground, getting heavier with thoughts and pictures.

At the moment I'm starving. Am I losing it?

Self Portrait With Cherry

Self Portrait With Cherry
Originally uploaded by Clinton_Hayden

Tillers Inspired Phillips Photo

Tillers Inspired Phillips Photo
Originally uploaded by Clinton_Hayden

Make-up by Mia'Kate Russell
Polaroids by Clinton
Clothes from Phillips
Art Direction by Mia + Clinton
Models Yumi, Ella and Michelle

Phillips Photo Shoot

Phillips Photo Shoot
Originally uploaded by Clinton_Hayden

Make-up by Mia'Kate Russell
Polaroids by Clinton
Clothes from Phillips
Art Direction by Mia + Clinton
Models Yumi, Ella

Phillips Photo Shoot

Phillips Photo Shoot
Originally uploaded by Clinton_Hayden

Make-up by Mia'Kate Russell
Polaroids by Clinton
Clothes from Phillips
Art Direction by Mia + Clinton
Models Yumi, Ella

Phillips Photo Shoot

Phillips Photo Shoot
Originally uploaded by Clinton_Hayden

Make-up by Mia'Kate Russell
Polaroids by Clinton
Clothes from Phillips
Art Direction by Mia + Clinton
Models Yumi, Ella

Phillips Photo Shoot

Phillips Photo Shoot
Originally uploaded by Clinton_Hayden

Make-up by Mia'Kate Russell
Polaroids by Clinton
Clothes from Phillips
Art Direction by Mia + Clinton
Models Yumi, Ella and Michelle

Phillips Photo Shoot

Phillips Photo Shoot
Originally uploaded by Clinton_Hayden

Make-up by Mia'Kate Russell
Polaroids by Clinton
Clothes from Phillips
Art Direction by Mia + Clinton
Models Yumi, Ella and Michelle

Phillips Photo Shoot

Phillips Photo Shoot
Originally uploaded by Clinton_Hayden

Make-up by Mia'Kate Russell
Photographs by Clinton + Sam
Clothes from Phillips
Art Direction by Mia + Clinton
Models Yumi, Ella and Michelle

Phillips Photo Shoot

Phillips Photo Shoot
Originally uploaded by Clinton_Hayden

Make-up by Mia'Kate Russell
Photographs by Clinton + Sam
Clothes from Phillips
Art Direction by Mia + Clinton
Models Yumi, Ella and Michelle

Elitism and the Arts.

is discouraging.

Elitism, nepotism and cliques. That, and everyone is a fucking artist.
I'm a bit over things... I don't know why. I'm in a rut. I haven't seen anything to inspire me in ages...

I Love This

I love how the main focused area is just almost out of frame. lovely.

I've got a new polaroid camera ( i know, they are nearly dead, but I'm hanging on...)
an sx70. I love it.

I want to take head and shoulder shots of boys/men. just a series of head an bare shoulder shots. I don't know why... kinda in a light room, nicely cropped and 3/4 above...

thinking thinking. I've been writing a post which I haven't finished yet about the state of things... soon to come. and more work by me. I need to finish my damn website, before the thing runs out and I havent finished it...

Les Yeux sans visage

Things that are hot

(from top to bottom)
1. This drawing by Michael Zavros http://www.michaelzavros.com
2. This photo I found somewhere.
3. This other photo I found somewhere.
4. This photo of Francois Sagat

Things I Like

I like religious sculptures, the idea of milk teeth, historical
medical paraphernalia, historical clothing, grey as a palate, old old
books, drawers. I love drawers.

Johnny Saw Horses... and some half naked dudes

Johnny Saw Horses... and some half naked dudes
Originally uploaded by Clinton_Hayden

Sam

Sam 2008

Saatchi Online Showdown

I've entered the Saatchi Online Showdown! Votes open on the 28th of July, follow this link to vote!

http://www.saatchi-gallery.co.uk/showdown/index.php?showpic=154036

Reading List, listening post.

I've decided to invent another persona, my smutty persona. he's got salt and pepper hair, and dresses like a crack dealer. I hope he comes out more often, and makes some art with me. And Maybe I can let go a bit pretending to be someone else...

This is all the stuff I'm looking at reading etc...

Love, Life, Goethe: How to be happy in an imperfect world - John Armstrong

Neverwhere - Neil Gaiman

Androphila: A Manifesto. Rejecting the Gay identity, reclaiming masculinity - Jack Melnbranche

A Room of One's Own -Virginia Woolf

Random magazines with awesome photographs... like Man About Town, and Dazed and Confused's Vivienne Westwood Special, and the New York Look Book.

James Jean's blog http://www.processrecess.com/

Ashley Wood's Website http://www.ashleywood.com

Book One - Chip Kidd's monograph of book covers

Terryworld - Terry Richardson

Bloodmoney - Tom Waits

Knowle West Boy - Tricky

Third - Portishead

Orphan Songs - Sarah Slean

feeding my brain is optimum at the moment. things like this happen.

Safe

Safe. I'm tired of being safe. Making "safe work", comfortable work.
It's kinda funny, the contrast between what I like and what I make.
The unashamed dirtyness of some of the artists I look at, the films I
watch.
When I make clothes though, I'm the opposite. I want to make
outrageous stuff ( well tailored though) massive executioner hoods
sewn into a double breasted vest, loud tartan lederhosen style shorts.
But in my art I just make safety. I'm too afraid of what I actually
want to depict.

how do you let go? how do you manage to let yourself actually draw/
paint/photograph the things that you want to show?

so tired of being safe.

Things to do

This week I'm working on a website for the Make-Up artist Mia'kate
Russell. She does special effects and other make-up fun. We're
planning a shoot together involving violence and girls and fur
coats... there'll be more of that to come. but I will be occupied this
week!

I've been collecting images of the net. I don't know what to do with
them, but every time I come across something I like I save it. Usually
if they have some element I like, composition or lighting or
otherwise, I keep them... but they are starting to build up, and I
don't know what to do with them... I think I'll make a book. They are
all reference... but I don't want to infringe on copyright, so I keep
them to myself....

I want to do another show. I have to join artshub and see whats out
there...

I want NYC

Brazilian Priest Found...

They found the boyd of the priest that flew away on 1000 helium
balloons. I've been dreaming of what he's been doing.... it was my
favorite story, to fly away on balloons...
sad.

Terry Richardson SMUT

Now, sometimes I am over the smut peddler, but sometimes I am not.
this is an example of when I'm not over it...
Secretly, I would love to photograph smut. Androphile smut, but smut -
not porno. I'm a bit nervy though when it comes to photos, and
erotically charged ones at that.
On one hand I don't want to peddle smut, I want to take it to a
different, possibly reflective level (if that makes sense). On the
other hand, I think taking dirty pictures would be hilarious. how does
that work?

I'm nervous, or, Asking strangers to take their photo

I'm a nervous/shy person when it comes to wanting to photograph
people....

I see people all the time who are interesting looking and have some
appeal I would like to photograph, but my shy disposition (even when
tanked) prevents me from asking the question. Last night I got my
friend to ask this guy who looks really interesting if i could
photograph him... but I can't do that all the time.

I think the problem with it is, I don't want to be misconstrued. I
don't want to be seen as hitting on them or being sleazy by asking
"can I photograph you?" I feel like if you are asking that question,
you might be misconstrued that way... which isn't the intention!

how do other people do it? any hints?

POST SCRIPT

so the guy ended up thinking i was totally creepy and wanted a BJ. I'm going to stick to photographing myself.

colour rules.

Use the colours you wouldn't think of using, like the ones in that tin of 160 pencils that you've used a certain amount of and never sharpened the rest because you would not ever think of using them.
or the tubes of paint in the set you thought weren't for you.
and use them like you would use your other colours.

How Lovely is this?

amazing...

Review from the Sunday Age M Magazine

Self Portrait as Twins Sharing A Room - 2008

"In this group show of work by young photographers, Clinton Hayden's stands out. First, because it does not feature pictures of bleak urban wastelands, indigenous people staring down the lens, or out-of-focus youths and trees. Second, it's technically masterful, with saturated colours and a perfect moody balance between light and dark. Third, it's spooky and interesting. The idea of the ghostly twin, or doppelganger, is played out through a series of self-portraits. But he's not blandly whining, "Hey I'm unsure of my identity in this crazy mixed-up world". The Staged images seem to criticise pretend-independent culture, in which a P.A.M. T-shirt, a hipster cardigan and dirty Chucks are a double-breasted suit equivalent for the professionally rebellious. His portraits (one twin looms over the other while he's sleeping) stray further into Narcissus territory, where vanity leads not to belonging at all, but to paranoia and isolation."

-Visual Arts Penny Modra Review The Sunday Age 'M' Pg. 24 22nd June 2008

gedart: Some Study's

gedart: Some Study's
how awesome cute is this? I love it!
Ged used to serve me in the art school store all those years ago when I went to ANU School of Art... His work is great, have a look!

Kareena Zerefos... wowie zowie

I've just stumbled across her stuff on this awesome site www.indie.com.au
so delicate and amazing! and very inspiring.... have a look at her
website http://www.kareenazerefos.com/
very beautiful.....
actually makes me want to get my pencils out.... which has been a
while because I've been working on the photos for the bamakko show....
it's still open for the next month btw, so if you are in Melbourne go
have a look!

this is a fashion illustration....

IV

I'm rebuilding my website, but my internet connection is giving me the
shits.

Nervous about the exhibition of course. I haven't shown photos since
2002, these ones are kinda a bit more fun than the last. Photography
is always more fun for me than the other stuff... I enjoy it. I'm
addicted to old cameras, which is going to get rough thanks to
digital...

I found this guy thanks to three thousand blog - Drew Pettifer http://www.drewpettifer.com

. He takes photos kinda like Walter Pfiefer, and kinda like I wish I
could. I'm too nervous to do that stuff... maybe I should let loose.
sleep time.

no one cares about jethro cave

Shuttered - Photography Exhibition at Bamakko 14th June 6 - 9pm

GET ON IT.

exhibition

I'm taking part in a group photography show in the next couple of weeks. I'll post the dates and the flyer when i get them! I'm going to show 4 photographs, part of the doppelganger/twin/narcissis stuff i've been doing. A lot of clean up needs to happen, but i'll get it done. Think it starts june fourteen.

Art and Porn: The Bill Henson Question.

Bill Henson is almost the only major contemporary artist in Australia to date. His works are amazing, quiet and still... exploring the strange spaces between adolescence and adulthood, dark and light, nature and industry. With and almost romantic view of the harder phases of life, his large scale works afford you to stop, linger... dream of that terrible space that we've all been in - Awkward, unaware of what was going on, in our lives or in our bodies, or in the adjustment to life today. Remind you of where you've come, where you are going.... with the subtext showing his deep obsession with the experience of human growth and the transition of child to adult. His photographs are grand scale cinematic endeavors, surreal and dark, moody, technically flawless and heavy with metaphor for the dark side of modern human condition, a society beyond repair - resulting in the tension seen in each frame.

Henson has been showing these works for over 25 years, same themes, some of the same images, in major exhibitions all over the world. 

Only now they have been deemed "pornographic". A recent exhibition at Roslyn Oxley9 gallery was shut down and works seized with a warrant issues under section 91G of the NSW Crimes Act, which prohibits the use of children for pornographic purposes. A Superintendent said the works seized depicted a child under the age of 16 "in a sexual context".  A complaint made by a sexual assault advocacy group Bravehearts member Hetty Johnston, lead the police to investigate. "I did make a complaint yesterday, absolutely," Ms Johnston said. "I asked them to prosecute, both the gallery and the photographer, but I'd like to see the parents as well looked in to. What parent in their right mind would allow their 12- or 13-year-old to strip off naked and display themselves all over the internet? That's not in the interests of the child. What's happening here is that the arts community have felt that they've been able to get away with this under the guise of art for a number of years, and I think this is the community drawing a line in the sand and saying, 'Enough's enough'."

Obviously, there's a clear definition needed. Pornography is the explicit depiction of sexual subject matter, with the sole intention of sexually exciting the viewer. I don't see Henson's intention in that definition. There is no sexualization going on in these images, and  Henson has been making images that challenge notions of adolesence for years now, so why the sudden uproar? Why all of a sudden is this work being called "Porn" or even worse, "Child Porn"? Some of these works have been circulating the art world for 25 years.

Personally I don't get it. Hensons work has been an inspiration in an almost cultural void of artists in Australia for many a young emerging artist. To me this seems like a step backward for all involved in the art world.  "It's child pornography by any name you want to call it," Hetty said. "At the end of the day, these are images of naked young girls - that's illegal and it's inappropriate." (What about the boys?!) Uneducated people like dear Hetty Johnston will prevent cultural growth in Australia by condemning the very figureheads of the Australian artistIc society. It will also increase the long held reputation of Australia being a country of prudish philistines and we've to thank Hetty and yes-man-I-want-to-please-everyone-Rudd for stunting our cultural growth. 

I've been watching all this happen since Thursday in disbelief.  I can't believe it really.  I didn't realise I lived in such a backwards country until now. It actually leaves me dumbfounded. 

I love clothes with hoods.

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Active Resistance

read this:

http://www.activeresistance.co.uk/

it's vivienne westwood's manifesto re: art, culture and the human
condition as it stands today.

I get her point, art is shit at the moment. I haven't seen anything
(apart from a few friends works) that has really blown me away.

I went to Greenwood gallery the other night for the drawing machine
opening. I really, really like tristan jalleh's work, and I would say
that even if I wasn't a friend, and every time I see it it blows me
away. but there was only one or two other peoples work in that show
(and in their lot of work really only one or two pieces that I liked)
that i wanted to keep looking at - a drawing of feathers, tristan so
perfectly rendered drawings, and a 3d image. that was it. the other
stuff just seemed to be a bit too cool.... the Emperor's New Clothes.
Unemotional, detached work that seems like it comes from trying to be
cool, rather than trying to see how you see the world...

can't be inspired when you see nothing inspiring.

tristan does make me want to work harder though... looking at his
stuff gets my hand itching to move and my brain ticking... I plod
though, I've always plodded. then images come in a burst.

what are you looking at?
share with me? what are you reading? what is it about? does it make
you imagine things?

at the moment I'm seeing red hooded boys. like the boy in flatliners.
scary but scared. hiding in a garden... hiding from who though?
and multiples. like twins. twin sides, duplicitous personality traits
and both evil.

Helping Hana

Originally uploaded by water&sleep

Look how amazing this is... I was helping hana the other night with her photographs... I just LOVE them...so fucking amazing....

Every great idea is on the verge of being stupid - Michel Gondry

nice.

Like Brothers

Like Brothers
Originally uploaded by Clinton_Hayden

Old Self Portrait

Self#1
Originally uploaded by Clinton_Hayden

tuesdays

is skins day. next week is the last episode. I am addicted.
sad.

fleshing out the next project, working on narcissism. I'm reading up
on it though, where it comes from Freud style. pretty heavy stuff, but
very interesting.

been touching up trannies. Well, one Tranny, for a friends folio.
Looking at a layout to make a cohesive story between 2 zombie addicted
people...
Wanting to do more. I've been seeing things and feeling the tingle.
time to sleep though. skins is over for tonight.

Self Control

gloria

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I am in love with them

HAWT! SO HAWT!