Saatchi Online Showdown

I've entered the Saatchi Online Showdown! Votes open on the 28th of July, follow this link to vote!

http://www.saatchi-gallery.co.uk/showdown/index.php?showpic=154036

Reading List, listening post.

I've decided to invent another persona, my smutty persona. he's got salt and pepper hair, and dresses like a crack dealer. I hope he comes out more often, and makes some art with me. And Maybe I can let go a bit pretending to be someone else...

This is all the stuff I'm looking at reading etc...

Love, Life, Goethe: How to be happy in an imperfect world - John Armstrong

Neverwhere - Neil Gaiman

Androphila: A Manifesto. Rejecting the Gay identity, reclaiming masculinity - Jack Melnbranche

A Room of One's Own -Virginia Woolf

Random magazines with awesome photographs... like Man About Town, and Dazed and Confused's Vivienne Westwood Special, and the New York Look Book.

James Jean's blog http://www.processrecess.com/

Ashley Wood's Website http://www.ashleywood.com

Book One - Chip Kidd's monograph of book covers

Terryworld - Terry Richardson

Bloodmoney - Tom Waits

Knowle West Boy - Tricky

Third - Portishead

Orphan Songs - Sarah Slean

feeding my brain is optimum at the moment. things like this happen.

Safe

Safe. I'm tired of being safe. Making "safe work", comfortable work.
It's kinda funny, the contrast between what I like and what I make.
The unashamed dirtyness of some of the artists I look at, the films I
watch.
When I make clothes though, I'm the opposite. I want to make
outrageous stuff ( well tailored though) massive executioner hoods
sewn into a double breasted vest, loud tartan lederhosen style shorts.
But in my art I just make safety. I'm too afraid of what I actually
want to depict.

how do you let go? how do you manage to let yourself actually draw/
paint/photograph the things that you want to show?

so tired of being safe.

Things to do

This week I'm working on a website for the Make-Up artist Mia'kate
Russell. She does special effects and other make-up fun. We're
planning a shoot together involving violence and girls and fur
coats... there'll be more of that to come. but I will be occupied this
week!

I've been collecting images of the net. I don't know what to do with
them, but every time I come across something I like I save it. Usually
if they have some element I like, composition or lighting or
otherwise, I keep them... but they are starting to build up, and I
don't know what to do with them... I think I'll make a book. They are
all reference... but I don't want to infringe on copyright, so I keep
them to myself....

I want to do another show. I have to join artshub and see whats out
there...

I want NYC

Brazilian Priest Found...

They found the boyd of the priest that flew away on 1000 helium
balloons. I've been dreaming of what he's been doing.... it was my
favorite story, to fly away on balloons...
sad.

Terry Richardson SMUT

Now, sometimes I am over the smut peddler, but sometimes I am not.
this is an example of when I'm not over it...
Secretly, I would love to photograph smut. Androphile smut, but smut -
not porno. I'm a bit nervy though when it comes to photos, and
erotically charged ones at that.
On one hand I don't want to peddle smut, I want to take it to a
different, possibly reflective level (if that makes sense). On the
other hand, I think taking dirty pictures would be hilarious. how does
that work?